Date:
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Title:
Dino & Matteo -- h-o-t!
haven't posted again for couple of days.
UPDATES:Saturday. went again to our province to attend Kuya Vince & Ate Vivian's wedding. it was a typical 'kasalang probinsya.' the
funny part: yung kumakanta while Ate Vivian was walking down the aisle cried. it was really funny because while she was singing, she was crying. HAHAHAHA. basta nakakatawa yung voice niya. we stayed at my Lola's house then went home the next morning.
i am not really in the mood right now. GAD. i hate the feeling i had last night.
so i cried&cried again. &the reason: namimiss ko na siya. naiinis na talaga ako sa sarili ko. sabi ng
mind ko,
kalimutan ko na siya. but my
heart says that i can't. sinabi ko na sa past entry ko na
i'm over him na. pero bat bumabalik nanaman? i guess it started with the the bitterness i felt when i read a girl's testimonial sa kanya.
bat ko pa kasi tinitignan? damn. so ayun nga. medyo nagselos ako. hahaha. :p tapos nung gabi ayun na. while i was praying, naalala ko nanaman siya. then i prayed to God na tulungan na akong kalimutan siya kasi ayoko na talaga. but still, i prayed na sana he's doing good &walang masamang mangyari sa kanya. tapos kinausap ko na si God. hahaha. :D i told him na sobrang nagsisisi na ako sa lahat ng ginawa ko. gusto ko man siya kausapin, gusto ko man mag-sorry, hindi ko magawa. bakit? kasi sasaktan ko lang sarili ko. i said to myself na babalikan ko siya when i'm okay na. na kahit ipagtabuyan niya ako, it won't hurt. so umiyak nanaman ako ng umiyak. then after i prayed, i just played the PSP para malibang naman ako. pero nagsawa din ako. i just sat on my bed, thinking of him &the memories we had. i was thinking of calling him. ewan ko ba. gusto ko lang siya marinig. so tumawag ako sa house nila. &sobrang obvious sa voice ko na i was so down that time.
Kyle answered my call, pero tulog na daw. naniniwala naman ako. haha. :p (tawa pa eh no?)
all his letters &gifts are still with me. so kinuha ko kagabi, then i read it again.
mixed emotions. missing him so much, touched, umiiyak, natatawa. then i realized
again that i was once a princess. i once had everything that i wanted. &i know na that was the reason why i can't forget him agad.
every move, every place, every time, siya nakikita ko. yun yung mahirap eh. i made him
my everything before, &now hirap na hirap ako tanggapin na wala na talaga.
ANO BA?! grabe. naiinis na talaga ako sa sarili ko.
if only i could turn back time &change how things were used to be. HAY. sana ngayong vacation lang 'to. siguro kasi wala akong maisip & magawa kaya ganito.
kaya ko naman na wala siya eh. ang hindi ko lang kaya eh yung hindi siya isipin. damn. we haven't seen each other for almost 2 months na. &hindi na kami nag-uusap for 1 month na. eh dati halos mamatay matay ako kapag di kami nag-uusap. takot na nga ako na makita siya eh. i mean, i don't know what to say or do kapag nagkita kami. sabi niya kasi sakin nun kapag nagkita naman kami babatiin niya ako. eh ako? shet. hindi ko ata kaya! dedma? sungitan? batiin? chikahin? ewan. kaya kapag nasa UST ako harap, likod, right & left talaga tingin ko eh. ayoko talaga magkita kami. haha. &baka isipin niya na siya pinupuntahan ko dun. duh. oh kaya sabihin niya nangfiniflirt ko nanaman mga boys dun. oh kaya nagpapapansin ako kay Gorby.
ayan. medyo bumabalik na yung mood ko. hahaha. :p iba talaga effect ng Gorby saken. hahahaha!
i have a new wallpaper sa phone ko. &it's f-ing
DINO IMPERIAL! OMFG. he is sooooooooooooo
HOTHOTHOT! i mean, uh? speechless. hahahahaha! :D last night, nung nagdadrama ako, nakita ko lang siya, napasmile na ako kahit papano. ((((: &
Matteo Guidicelli. gaaaaaaaaad. kasama siya sa
Gokada Go! grabe. i really should be here every Saturday afternoon to watch Dino in Abt Ur Luv & Matteo in Gokada Go. hahahaha! :D
Ms. Japan grabbed the
Miss Universe 2007 title. asian beauty really rocks. hahahaha. (:
