Is back.

Date: Tuesday, May 8, 2007
Title: untitled

hello UST tomorrow! weeeeeeeee. medyo nasawi lang ako kasi wala daw training sila Gorby. ): aw aw aw. i am going to skip classes just to accompany my everdearest Bianca. YES, I'M A VERY GOOD FRIEND. hahahaha! dadaan din ako sa training ng Pep. &sana wala akong makitang hindi kanais-nais.

i can't sleep last night. ang aga ko pa naman humiga, ang tagal ko nakatulala. rhyming, eh? hahahaha! soooo, i opened my computer &nagtype ako. nilagay ko lahat ng na-fi-feel ko. BITTERNESS nanaman. hahahaha! (: ano ba naman yan? bitter pa din ako, eh ang tagal na nun. LECHE. hahahaha.

sabi ni Bianca, sasama lang siya sa reunion kapag sasama daw ako. AWWWWWW. i love you so much Bianx. mwamwamwa! :* bestfriend talaga kita forever. &karibal forever. i can't wait to see you tomorrow. kahit wala yung pinakamamahal naten, ayos lang. hahahaha. kahit masakit. LOL.

so my day was jam-packed. we had quizzes in Health Ethics and Stats, and may report kami sa History. at inaasar nila ako kasi while i'm reporting, ganito ako. ung..ung..ung..ung..ung... kasi naman. hindi ko alam yung right term dun sa sasabihin ko. HAHAHAHAHA. :D then we celebrated the victory of our report sa Jollibee after classes. weeeee! i ordered Saba con hielo, ang all-time favorite ko sa Jollibee. ahlabetuberuber! hahahaha. :D i'm with Grace, AM, Jaire and Karren. so laughtrip nanaman. hello? hindi na mawawala yun. HAHAHAHA! pano ba naman. nagpipicture kaming 5. so ginamit namin yung self-timer. eh d naka-pose na kami, tapos bigla ako nagsalita, Jaire, ilang seconds yun? JAIRE: 20 seconds. at natawa na ako and umalis na ako sa pwesto ko. hahahahahaha! hello naman! i am going to smile for 20 seconds?! hindi kaya maglock yung mouth ko nun. ((((((:

eto nga yung entry ko kagabi. this was out of my boredom, because i can't sleep. SORRY NAMAN SA BITTERNESS NITO.

05/08/07 – 10:16pm

i can’t sleep. i don’t know why.

i received this quote from Jonathan a while ago.

until you find the person who completesyou
you would never know that all along,
you are only half of what you are meant to be
find someone who completes you
your other half, your better half
someone whom you can’t live without
and when you find that someone,
don’t let go.
never take that someone for granted
for when you lose that person
it will be very hard to live a life having only half of what you were

tama tama. (: WARNING: if you can’t take my bitterness, better not read this entry. all right?

sabi ko sa entry ko before sa Multiply, YOU WOULD NEVER KNOW WHO YOUR TRUE FRIENDS ARE. totoo. i thought i have found them, pero maling akala lang yun. pero kelangan ko na lang makisakay sa kanila. i mean, kung magagalit pa ako sa kanila, sino pa tatakbuhan ko? okay lang na plastikin niyo ako, pinaplastik ko din naman kayo. i just want to clear things about US. kilala ko naman kung sino yung nagkakalat ng rumors about us eh. anyway. so what was the rumor all about? kabit daw ako. FUNNY, but in a way, it is true. narealize ko lang naman na kabit ako nung narinig ko yun eh. hahaha. so as i have said, i want to clear things about the rumor.

OFFICIAL STATEMENT: hindi niya ako naging kabit. let’s define “kabit” first. for me, KABIT - girl or boy na in a relationship with the opposite or same sex na in a relationship den with another girl/boy. i don’t know how you define the word, pero wala na ako pake dun. soooo ayun nga. eh sa pagkakaalam ko kasi, ako lang ung girl niya that time. or baka kayo lang yung may alam na he’s in a relationship with other girl/s. kung iniisip niyo naman yung relationship namin before the relationship we had since October, walang malisya yun. TEKA NGA. why am i explaining these to stupid people like THEM? MGA CHISMOSA. i don’t care if you’re going to believe me. I REALLY DON’T CARE. naiinis lang ako kasi whenever someone knew about me and my pagiging kabit, nag-iiba na talaga tingin saken. i care more for the people who really don’t know me. why? ewan. hahahaha. ((: SA MGA CHISMOSO/A AT INTREGRO/A: GET A LIFE. okay? mind your own fucking businesses, not mine. and don’t make stories out of something. GAD. galit ako sa inyo. alam niyo na kung sino kayo. kung kelan tapos na kami, saka niyo ako pagchichismisan.

so hindi pa connected yung quote sa sinabi ko.

i am freaking mad at HIS sister. her elder sister, her ate, her atsi, WHATEVER! even though she knows the reason why we broke up, she has no right to treat me like that and to be mad at me, too. oo, alam ko na kapatid mo siya pero i don’t think tama na magalit ka saken. here’s the kwento about it. (actually, one of the kwentos) so i called him para sabihin na i would be the one to give the book to him, since Jaire can’t. his mom actually told me to call him sa landline. okay. so i called. and his atsi was the one who answered the call. and the way she said “hello” pa lang, i got irritated na agad. pasigaw ba naman na mag-hello, who will not be irritated with that GIRL?! so i said, Pwede po kay ____? binatawan niya agad yung phone and it was very obvious na parang binalibag niya. naiinis na ako nun. SOBRA. so sinabi ko na sa kanya kung ano yung sasabihin ko. and i think, after how many days, i asked him why his ate is mad at me? &sinabi niya na tawag daw ako ng tawag eh ka-chat niya yung boyfriend niya sa States, so na-disconnect. EXCUSES. tawag ng tawag? GAD. i just called once. &simula nun nagalit na siya saken. tapos nalaman niya ung reason sa nangyari samen &lalo pa siya nagalit. oh well. i don’t care din naman eh. nurse ka pa man din, pero you don’t have manners. kung sa ordinary people, you act like that, how more sa mga patients mo? wag mong ipagmalaki saken na graduate ka na ng Nursing and you have passed the board exams, because i can also do it, BETTER THAN YOU.

hinga muna. HAHAHA. ((:

i miss Kyle so much. like the first time we met, we got close because of her Tamagochi. tapos nag-draw pa siya ng kung ano ano. FYI, i kept all her drawings talaga. (: &we were planning that time na we’ll be going out with her KUYA. and sadly, hindi natuloy. and i felt more sad nung nafeel ko na she’s also mad at me. sabi ko nga kay Evil Man, bata naman yun wag mo ng idamay. problema natin to.

NASAN NA YUN BITTERNESS? hahahaha!

a lot of people ask me if i still love him.

THE ANSWER: he is my other half until now. maybe the love i had for him back then, wala na. maybe if i still love him, until now, nagpapakatanga pa din ako dun, but not anymore. i still care for him. SO MUCH. inaamin ko, i am still hoping na maayos pa kami ulit, but not now. pahinga muna kami. if ever i come back to him, and may umeksena na, i won’t give up. why? kung hindi ko siya pinaglaban nun, i think that would be the best time para gawin ko yun. i know that there will come a time na pagtatawanan ko na lang ‘tong bitterness ko na ‘to. too confident? no, i’m not. alam ko takbo ng isip niya, alam ko syempre takbo ng isip ko. all i have to do is not to make the wrong move, and that’s it. &WE WOULD LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER.

&at last, i’m sleepy na. (:

i don’t need to apologize to people i have mentioned here na tinira ko. THIS IS MY BLOG. I MADE THIS ONE. okay? make your own account, tapos dun niyo ako tirahin. all right?

ang taray ko pala kagabi. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. :D